Ughhhh

How to feel, how to feel. Today I learned of my third LSAT results. I am disappointed. I think I am disappointed anyways. I don’t know how to feel.

It’s yet another let down. Or should I say a reminder of who I am. My closest people in life know this analogy- I’ve always been a 93 student. I am smart, but I am not smart enough. I am not smart enough to get that 100. I wasn’t smart enough to get a 4.0. I wasn’t smart enough to ever get a perfect score on an AP test or a test in general for that matter. I was a good athlete, but I wasn’t the best. I was good enough to get on good teams, but not good enough to get a scholarship. I was good enough to get an internship in New York, but not good enough to secure a full-time job. I was smart enough to get a 159 on the LSAT but not good enough to get a 160.

My small mind chooses to shrink into the thoughts of I will never be good enough. I know I am on God’s path, but is his path mediocrity? I am tired of not being good enough.